Armed with a Bingo 2021

Despite last year being a miserable failure for my attempt last year, I will be trying this lovely challenge again!

(Links will be edited in as reviews are made…)

B1 The All-Consuming World – Cassandra Khaw (I can’t wait for this to be released!)
B3 The Lost Pages – Marina Pericic
B4 Days of Reign – Elisa Hansen
B5 Lost Boy – Christina Henry

I1 Collected Poems – Les Murray (subject to change… this may be a little ambitious for me!)
I2 Eight Lives – Susan Hurley
I4 The Caveman – Jorn Lier Horst

I+N5 Vagabonds – Hao Jingfang

N1 Tiger Shrimp Tango – Tim Dorsey
N2 Splintered – A.G. Howard (subject to change)
N3 Prague Spring – Simon Mawer

G1 The Lost Man – Jane Harper
G2 Mockingbird – Walter Tevis
G3 Guardian of Lies – Kate Furnivall
G4 Khaki Town – Judy Nunn
G5 The Girl in Red – Christina Henry

O1 The Bluffs – Kyle Perry
O2 Stasiland – Anna Funder
O3 The Light Brigade – Kameron Hurley
O4 Where the Crawdads Sing – Delia Owens

Thoughts on Metro 2033

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I remember when this was first released. There was a set-up in the plaza, books arranged on a tall square table/shelf to stare up and out at the world and tempt readers to pick them up. A square banner was posted overhead, and the entire thing was set up outside the bookstore – a Collins. It was the first major book display I’d seen in that town, so of course I took notice, but ultimately decided against buying the book.

Fast forward, and now-adult me buys a new game – Metro 2033 Redux. Which I quit after a few months trying to pass the level with the traincars and no I am not bloody joking but was completely captivated by otherwise. The atmosphere of the games, the world it was set in… it caught my imagination, and I wanted more. So this is based on a novel? Hmm, off to look it up… and it’s that book, the one outside the Collins. So it was added to and languished on my already-too-long wishlist until a certain reading challenge unleashed the urge to buy it on me…

Still with me? Great. You’re the kind of people who’d appreciate the first chapter or so of Metro 2033 a whole lot more than I did – and hopefully love the whole book as much as I do!

Now, to business….

At first, I was unimpressed. It begins abruptly, immersing us in the daily life and guard duty of our eyes in the Metro, Artyom, often whisking us off into worldbuilding and mood-setting, mostly through dialogue. Credit where credit’s due, though: they’re engaging little slices and when I was listening to the audiobook, it was almost a disappointment when the story moved on. That is an element of the book I truly love: all the different stories, not just the ones Artyom stumbles into at each station and with his various companions, but the myriad theories and philosophies shared by the characters. And how vividly the characters are written!

Most of my reading was actually listening to the audiobook, and after my first listen I was ready to hear more. The narrator, Rupert Degas, was engaging and did a fantastic job with all the voices and moods (and the constant accents!) he had to manage. The distorted line, “I am dead, there is no more me.” will live on in my nightmares. Once the initial infodumps were out of the way, I was quickly hooked and eager for the next chapters.

The book has in its front and back covers a map of the Metro with the various factions and other notable things marked… I’m grateful for this, because reading Artyom planning which stations he would travel through made me want one for reference – and I’m not usually a visual person. There’s an interesting little catch there, too, because it would bug me that I don’t know the distances involved. Between scenes, was Artyom hunkering down over a fire and roasting some fungi on a cast-iron pan? How do you find a safe place to sleep between stations, or are all the stations in basically a half-hour’s walk from each other? It’d be pretty disappointing if it turned out that all the tense drama and eerie horror of the tunnels was packed into a stone’s throw!

Speaking of the horror… the author isn’t pulling his punches, even with the child characters. There are many flavours of horror here – from the eerie, creepy kind to the squishy, brutal kind, to the more ‘mundane’, specific horrors, like that of a losing a child. I am going to spoil one part, because it is the one that got to me the most: the scene between the old ‘priest’ and Oleg, with the latter being prompted to betray his own father, even to say that he deserves death, to his father’s face. Like, what else could Oleg do? It’s the gentle, teacherly way he’s forced to say these things that really gets to me, and the despair and shock and sadness you can imagine Anton must feel. And the whole part where he’ll be forced to cannibalise him tomorrow doesn’t help either. I actually found the Librarian easier to handle than that repulsive brainwashing scene.

I wonder if someone’s written a Discworld/Metro crossover fic…

Sorry, I had to 😛

Now, as to that ending… it’s a nice twist, but I’m not 100% buying the Dark Ones’ motives – and why only Artyom? It’d be a lot quicker and easier to just find some other human who could be made receptive. Don’t tell me the Dark Ones are just that into dramatic symbolism?

Skepticism aside, the ending was magnificently executed. You would have to read it for yourself, but it’s been a long time since a book left me feeling so… so what? Wide-eyed isn’t the right word. The final line was perfection, ambiguous and giving nothing away. It’s left up to you, the reader, to decipher… but why? There is nothing more to say.

Metro 2033 is a lovely rollercoaster, following Artyom’s journeys through the stations and the surface, but also exploring the peoples and stories of the Metro itself along the way. It’s a fascinating world, full of horrors but never allowed to get too bleak. Life goes on, after all. Down in the Metro…

NOTE: Trying to avoid spoilers – at least the important ones – means there is a good deal I can’t talk about. So here we go, because I really want to talk about the bit of the plot that takes up the final part of the book: the quest to rid Moscow of the threat of the Dark Ones once and for all. The horror of this snuck up on me, despite even the diary Artyom read… it all sounds straightforward, yes? Nuke desolate Moscow to wipe out the threat, while everyone remains perfectly safe below. Do to Moscow what was done before – and what seems to have ripped apart reality and created the hellscape it is now. Nuke Moscow, and commit genocide against a peaceful, young species of beings with not just intelligence but hopes and dreams of their own (and a fondness for symbolism and mindrape, but oh well, six of one, half a dozen of another?) And why not? Humanity has done it once before, haven’t they?

That’s the real horror, I think, and it’s a message hiding in plain sight, whether it’s the decision to nuke Moscow, or just what the squabbles of the various Metro factions clearly signal: humanity never learns.

And the lingering, additional question: But can it improve?

What will Artyom do next?

#ARMEDWITHABINGO 2020

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This wonderful challenge invites you to read a bingo of books of your choice, fit to the themes laid out in the main card, and can be found here.

I found this when I was looking for something fun to get me back into reading – the bingo idea is so cute, and looking at some of these squares got me thinking about what fit them. Like, which book would I read for, ‘A book with a beautiful cover’, and how doomed am I with the prompt, ‘A book you saw someone else reading’? You don’t see people reading physical books much…

So yeah, I signed up 🙂

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Me being me (ie, crazy), I tacked on some extra parameters: the books are decided in advance, they’re print books only, and only books on my wishlist or TBR. (With a few exceptions, but shhhh). Reviews, or at least ramblings, will be posted, because I really am excited to get stuck into these, and some of them were picked purely because they’ll make me think.

I’m aiming for a blackout – so, here is my bingo list!

(Links to reviews as I make them)

B1 The Lost Pianos of Siberia, by Sophy Roberts
B2 City, by Clifford D Simak
B3 (possibly The Guardian of Lies, by Kate Furnivall)
B5 Lost Boy, by Christina Henry

I1 My Poems, by Marina Tsvetaeva
I2 Metro 2033, by Dmitry Glukhovsky
I4 The Caveman, by Jorn Lier Horst
I5 The First Man in Rome, by Colleen McCullough (double square with N5)

N1 Tiger Shrimp Tango, by Tim Dorsey
N2 Six of Crows, by Leigh Bardugo
N3 Mockingbird, by Walter Tevis
N5 The First Man in Rome, by Colleen McCullough (double square with I5)

G1 The Fifth Season, by N.K. Jemisin
G2 We, by Yevgeniy Zamyatin
G3: (possibly The Guardian of Lies, by Kate Furnivall? The Black Sheep, by Balzac? I’m scratching my head over this one…)
G4 The Woman in White, by Wilkie Collins
G5: Dog On It, by Spencer Quinn

O1 The Returned, by Seth Patrick
O2 The Mutiny on the Bounty, by Peter FitzSimons
O3 Tigana, by Guy Gavriel Kay
O4 The Ten Thousand Doors of January, by Alix E. Harrow
O5 (If I can get a copy of In the Miso Soup, by Ryu Murakami…)

A Sheepish Return

Life has been full of brilliant and nasty things since my last post (2016, yikes), but I wanted to get this, ‘Okay, I’m alive, the void may rejoice (don’t worry, that’s sarcasm)’ post in. I might be the world’s worst person for updates, but there’s always a point when I do.

Well, mostly.

Now that life’s settled again, I’m looking kick off my blogging with a reading challenge or two. If I don’t, I’m terrified my TBR might come to life and crush me. No really. There’s over 400 books in that thing.

My writing is another thing I’m looking to get back into. This blog seems like a wonderful way of holding myself accountable (“If you don’t get a move on with this idea, you’ll have to write a blog post about writer’s block…”).

Also, I may just want to type into the void about my lovely, lively fish, or the new cooking experiments I’m able to conduct now I live on my own – including the delicious failures, like today’s giant crumpets.

But never experimenting with cooking lively fish. Oh, no. They’re far too cute to die…

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Last of the NaNo Prep

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It’s October 31, less than five hours ’til the clock ticks over into November 1, and my NaNo prep is almost complete!

The photo you can see up there is of my desks ready for me to start writing. The only thing that isn’t there normally is my story bible – that would be the little black Filofax with the blue pen you can hardly see. Oh, and the Lindt chocolates, aka the things I get one of for every five pages written.

The books are:

The Baby Name Wizard by Laura Wattenberg. This goes a step further from listing names and comments, and groups them together under categories like Surfer 60’s, African-American, Bell Tones, New Classics. My favourite naming resource, which is why I broke down in paranoia over my first edition’s scruffy and very well-used look and bought a fat new updated third edition copy.

Fascinate: Your 7 Triggers to Persuasion and Captivation, by Sally Hogshead. This is an interesting book in its own right, but I keep it on the shelf as a quick reminder not to get too carried away with abstract stuff – one of my worst habits. The seven triggers (trust, alarm, mystique, power, vice, lust, prestige) basically bounce off the ‘keep it simple’ and ‘keep it primal’ writing advices I’ve seen so often, and the idea of being able to reach into a reader’s head and tap into something integral to the human experience is a powerful one for me.

The New Baby Name Survey, by Bruce Lansky. An interesting new take on the usual baby name book – this is the end result of research into what people think of different names… so if you’re ever curious about what people might think of your Cara or Oliver, this is one book to check out. But! As an added bonus, the impressions listed for the name are pretty much little character profiles. I admit I’ve raided this for a minor character or two…

Writer’s Guide to Character Traits by Dr Linda Edelstein. You can pull this out for info on the stages of childhood, the different kinds of families, the common personality traits shared by people in the same profession, mental disorders, listing of different crimes and traits associated with them, character types, etc. It’s not perfect, but it can really help when you’re trying to figure out why your SMC decided to forge new identities and other un-fun papers for a living.

The other two books are an unusually descriptive thesaurus which is worth way more than the $5 I bought it for, and a Lonely Planet Czech phrasebook and dictionary… you wouldn’t believe how useful that thing is.

As for my computer, I’ve installed f.lux, a program which adjusts the lighting of your computer screen to make it easier on your eyes and brain (great for any purpose, not just late night/early morning typing). I’ll also be using OpenOffice for my writing – as awesome as other programs (yWriter, Scrivener) are, this is the one I end up going back to. It’s basically a Word clone, but no one price-gouges you for it (I miss Word, but the last time I bought it, it cost $160… and it could only be installed three times. How does that even make sense?!).

My NaNo playlist is a weird nice mash of Lindsey Stirling, Velcra, Serge Gainsbourg, Gods of the Underworld, Ice Ages, and A Perfect Circle, with Igorrr and Natalia Kills thrown in for good measure. And if that wasn’t enough (it totals 43 songs), I’ve also installed the Coffitivity app on my iPod. Productive noise! I wish Paris Paradise was available on the app, though…

Tonight’s perfume will be BPAL‘s Black Moon: a nice perfume with pungent florals and gentle background notes… oh, and most importantly, I cleaned and revamped my room. Not exactly thrilling, but it beats having it bug me all November.

And that’s my stuff for NaNo. The story bible gets its own post, because I have things to say about paring back a world, and the unsuitability of using 11″ ring binders for it. (Other things 11″ binders are not good at: KEEPING FINGERTIPS INTACT).

So, if you’ve actually managed to make it through my pre-NaNo ramblings, is there anything special you do or use for NaNo – a new pen, writing playlist, sleeping pills to keep the husband and kids out while you write (okay, maybe not the last one)…

GOOD LUCK FOR NOVEMBER, EVERYONE 🙂

This Year’s NaNo Plans

The National Novel Writing Month – 50000 words in 30 days. This is a writing challenge I’ve participated in (almost) every year since 2006. Never won, but… to be honest? It’s the energy, the community, and especially it’s the fun and pushing myself to see how far I can go and when the event is over, looking back at what I’ve written and feeling amazed because hey, this is actually pretty darn good that keeps me doing NaNo.

Okay, that’s a lot of ands, but I’ve never been the best at explaining how I feel about something.

Getting back to the point – I’ve picked up a bad habit over the years of only cottoning on to the fact that yes, NaNo is November and November is soon, in the last week or so of October. In one way, it’s a canny unconscious ploy to keep me from getting bored from with my idea and switching over and over (a huge problem), but in another… yeah.

This year’s a bit simpler for me.

I’ve had this world stuck in my head since 2011, and five years of it churning around, occasionally being written, changed, revised, and just plain coming together as a thing, pretty much means I’m beyond obsessive really dedicated stuck with this until I give it a home on paper. Which I’m happy to do.

Thing is, it’s not a novel… it’s kind of confusing what it is. Every time I write something set in this world, it’s like part of a serial. Flash fictions, all tying in together and hinting to other flash fictions… and I really want to see what this all looks like, strung together.

So a tiny piece of that is what I’ll be working on for NaNo. That tiny piece is the Dead Town Chronicles – mostly because the town itself is the only real constant in this particular part of the vaguely-defined timeline (five years and… you know? I am the world’s slowest planner. But hey, by 2050, I might actually have a name for this thing!). So my biggest problems with that are – pretty obviously – I need to consolidate my ‘facts’, and figure out what I don’t know.

That means it’s story bible time!

And writing a story bible is terrifying. Which is probably why I, uh, haven’t actually started mine yet. I have spent so long fiddling with this world that now I’ve got it pared back and identified what I need to know… the act of putting this thing that has existed and percolated in my mind for so long, down on actual, physical paper is – yeah, I’d better update my diary first, while I’m still in the mood. Fetch a Pepsi Max. Glue more writing prompts onto my pink pages. Daydream. Listen to the NoSleep or Russian Rulers History podcasts, check my inbox and online shopping orders, wait until I’ve got character portraits to add to their pages, oh, anything.

Most tellingly of all, the excuse of ‘I’m too tired/nervous/bored/want to do something else, better wait ’til I’m in the mood’… because then I won’t screw it up any more than I normally would. Perfectionism, the perfect cure for which is… just get on with it.

Did I mention that writing a blog post is also procrastination? And amazing motivation, too… I have these problems, and now people can see them. It’s a weird accountability thing I’ve had for as long as I remember. So, more on the story bible and the rest of my NaNo prep later… when they’re all nice and developing!

I’m Back, with a Flood!

After… what, six or seven months? It wasn’t supposed to be that long, believe me – but now I am settled in my new home, with my new Internet connection, and my new screen…and my new anti-virus software.

And now for a new renter’s pro tip: Never. Trust. Fresh. Paint. It hides a multitude of sins, all of them apparently perfectly calculated to start showing a couple of weeks after your first inspection.

On the upside: best. Location. Ever. Also, very handily out of range of the flood.

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That was taken on the second day and shows only one small part of it. And please keep in mind, when I moved here five months before taking this picture, the river was a lovely pool on one side of the bridge.

(Yes, that is a tyre just behind the railing there. It started out at the dry bottom of the river and rose with the flood – then it was just stuck there, bobbing around but not actually going anywhere until the river went down).

That first day though, it’s really weird to walk down the street Thursday, and when you go for a second walk on Friday – the bridge is underwater. The park is underwater. The bus stop is underwater! And the flood is doing its damnedest to swamp the abandoned house on the main street. (Spoiler: it didn’t. But the weeds choking the backyard were unhappy for a while).

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This was also taken early on – I don’t know who this guy is or what he was doing zipping and drifting around out there (testing the current, possibly? It was pretty strong), and I feel kind of guilty posting it, but this was pretty awesome.

A lot of things came out with the flood – galahs, mosquitos, a small flock of cockatoos that kept me entertained for a while trying to get pictures of them (they were really having a ball flying from tree to tree and calling to each other), a couple of lost-seeming magpies, and a guy who had a little drone flying around, maybe taking readings or just spying out the river – the area he was standing in was completely underwater the next day. Oh, and frogs.

Lots and lots of frogs.

At night, you could hear them all up and down the river – and I’m not exactly close, like a few blocks off – croaking and calling for mates. Some of them close to town didn’t even stop during the day. Beautiful chorus.

They dropped off with the flood and the rains, though… but they’re back now. The river’s flooded a bit again, so it’s the long way round into town now. Chinese wouldn’t have been ordered last night if I’d known.

Yeah! And we have a Chinese restaurant here too! I would’ve taken photos of my food last night if I wasn’t so busy enjoying it…

Also, NaNo is coming up soon… in 22 days o.O I need to get my prep on!

Already Behind on Day Five

Day One of Camp was a roaring success, and I will be posting that soon.

Day Two? Eh, not really… I wrote a bit, a part of a larger whole, but had to let it go. The idea’s very clear to me, but where I began it feels wrong. It’s basically jamming up my creativity, because I’m not sure where to go after the little Part 1, or how to express it without being clichéd. All I know is, we’re looking at short story territory doing it like this, and I want to keep it at flash fic – just don’t feel like wrangling a short story out of myself.

Day Three, medication making me tired (seeing my doctor about getting me off it) and was waiting, as I was to help paint. That happened finally on Day Four, and a little after that, a whole cluster of the sinews in my knee up and decided to migrate, before being clicked back into place. It really hurt, and my knee’s still painful and stiff from it.

Oh, and then there’s been all the packing. I’m nearly done on that, thank god.

The good thing is that with my knee complaining, I need to rest up. Good thing about this? It’s perfect for catching up!

(It probably doesn’t help that I walked halfway across town to get my Chic Sparrow parcel today. Hey, a girl’s got priorities. So here are my lovely new two-pen holder and my beautiful burgundy Mr Darcy Deluxe:

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You can’t really see my name on the bottom left corner, but it’s there 🙂 )

Camp NaNo Survival Kit

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A biscuit tin of mixed-up prompts, for those times when inspiration fails.

Favourites chocolates, one for every 500 words (even if I set them aside and eat them later).

Two notebooks from the lovely PetalsPrintShop; the ones you can see are my spares.

Pen refills, because of course.

Uniball Jetstream with a 1.0 thickness; my favourite gel pen, and being black and thicker than I usually like them, it will stand out well on the coloured pages.

Ultraviolet, by the Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab; its description has it at, ‘Electrifying, mechanized and chilly – the scent of crushed blooms strewn on cold metal. Lush violet and neroli spiked hard with eucalyptus and a sliver of mint.’. My personal review has it down as ‘a cold, razor-sharp scent with a dominant eucalyptus note’. Either way, this is one of my absolute favourites, and isn’t too bitey to distract me. (And you should really check out BPAL. Their scents are just wonderful).

The beautiful Walleedori from Hunkeedori, newly arrived and fully prepared! I bought this one expressly for NaNo and Camp NaNo, and the usefulness of Walleedoris really can’t be overstated: they have a zipper pocket in front and a file pocket at the back. Here’s an inside look:

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Isn’t it gorgeous? The card holders hold my storyboarding cards (I’m a fan of the three-act structure, and I sometimes do additional cards on setting, character and plot/subplot, so this is perfect.

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My Camp NaNo playlist, since I used my iPod to take the photo. Suffice to say, it has a weird mix of Lindsey Stirling, Giallos Flame, Psychemagik and Serge Gainsbourg… most of which I’ve only just discovered!

Pride and Prejudice, since I didn’t think to add it in. Reading as much of it as I like is my reward for finishing a story. This isn’t the kind of book I anywhere near usually read, but I’m really enjoying it (37% of the way through, according to my Kindle). The writing is lively, the dialogue makes me laugh with its wittiness, and it makes me curious about the time the author lived in. The way people act, some of the attitudes they all seem to hold – the superiority or inferiority of one’s connections being so important, the amiableness of women, marriage as a social and economic contract… at one point, wedding arrangements are described as ‘love-making’. It’s fascinating, and I can appreciate that Jane Austen isn’t afraid to lance her own characters.

My storyboarding cards, because if you need to plan something, you need to plan something.

My Dead Town Chronicles/Through the Ravening (dear god, I need to give that world a single unifying name) stuff. Because all DTC/TR stories are going in some lovely notebooks from BookfellStudio, which will themselves be in a gorgeous burgundy Mr Darcy Deluxe from Chic Sparrow, this is kind of a must for Camp. I just can’t shake this world from my imagination, and I can’t wait for my items to arrive!